1/18/2009 12:11:00 AM
it's cold now;
Saturday, January 17, 2009
updated my profile and wishlist and blah blah blah.
go see under "winter".
seriously, ppl, dun ask me out.
i feel bloodily indignant, guilty, frustrated, sian, etc.
in short, upset.
it's really not within my control.
if it really is within my control, do you think i'll still be stuck in these bloody houses?!?!?!
NO.
i'll be meeting up with lots of ppl.
think for me.
i'm not as carefree k?
though i wish to be carefree.
dun wanna push my luck.
cos i've tried pushing it.
how do you think i could go out in e first place??
yeah i noe i'm worse than pathetic.
but seriously
if you guys wanna go out so much
and need a female companion,
go get another girl.
i'm 100% not that girl who can go out every week.
you noe how much it breaks my heart when i totally am locked at home
and you guys are out?
and you guys want me out?
how i'd wish i could just bang e wall and die
so that i'm no longer restrained to the many walls at home.
you kept repeating that no one understands you.
so who understands me?
even if you understand, will you ever accept it for good?
1/17/2009 01:04:00 AM
it's cold now;
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
and... i suddenly miss 23/07.
maybe reading bear's blog caused our mini mini fights and squabbles to resurface...
or maybe jay chou's voice is just too overwhelming...
it's been a long time ever since i went blog surfing, esp for 23/07 blogs.
read thru wat i've missed.
really, i've missed a lot.
bear's was one of the last few.
but when i reached his and scrolled down,
i just can't hold back.
oddly enough, i started by smiling.
den crying.
if bear ever reads tis, he's gonna label me a crazy woman again.
but... i dunno....
really miss e girls, though i can't go out...
and the guys too....
sian.
wanna find bear bear to quarrel with me again.
bear bear i miss you!!!! O;(
1/13/2009 11:51:00 PM
it's cold now;
Monday, January 12, 2009
recently went back to anderson to relief for a few days.
ok lah, the teachers are great.
most of e students too, except for a couple of NA students.
they really got me pulling my hair out.
enjoyed exploring the teachers' lounge.
staff benefits and all.
haha.
lucky jiahao.
he gets to stay there for 4 months.
miss the place a lot.
and the food.
afterall, 4 out of 18 years of my life went to that place.passed my ftt le.
wonder when will i be able to take my test.
hmmm.
should be later than e private candidates ba.
should've gone private instead of sch.
now have to wait for a LONG time.
and this, is going to be my NEW CAR.
not mine exactly, cos i'm sharing it with my dad.
rather upset with e colour initially.
cos it's PINK. migod.
but, i suppose i've to come to terms with it.cos most ppl definitely dun have a car of their own,
much less a honda.
ok. it's just 1.3.
but still.
but THEN....
pls, dun start car pooling.
i'm NOT a chauffeur.
thought that e car will do good for my endless number of tuitions though.
1/12/2009 12:24:00 AM
it's cold now;
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
wow. it's been almost a mth.
am officially an unemployed.
so difficult to get relief teaching.
*cries*
miss going to sch again.
suppose it's e security that studying in jc gives.
wear uniform, do hw, got allowance.
dun need to worry abt jobs, resume, portfolio and money.
lagi best, got bear and e rest.
wonder how's everyone doing now.
i seem to have disappeared into thin air, out of contact...
enjoyed myself at e chalet.
once again, proved that qien dotes on me e most.
O:D
still suffering from post-chalet-blues.
though there were hiccups everywhere, anytime,
like wat qien said,
"just take e positives."
think it's e highlight of e holidays.
but we overspent.
KA-BOOOM!!!!!!
went for my 1st driving lesson today.
ok lah.
quite fun, quite nervous, quite excited.
seriously,
i'm under e delusion that i'm rather fab as my car engine only stalled twice in 2 hrs on e 1st day.
or is it a delusion?
my credit card bill came.
omg it's 2.5K!!!
KA-BA-BOOM!!!!
less than a mth to chinese new year.
meaning, 1 mth later will be my bdae.
wat do i want?
how to celebrate?
i dunno....
but i think it'll be rather hard on qien.
cos 5 days after my bdae will be valentines.
KA-BA-BA-BA-BOOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
1/06/2009 12:19:00 AM
it's cold now;
