5/30/2006 11:05:00 PM
it's cold now;
he's in ntu now.
in lep camp.
haiz.
i'm sick now.
not lovesick.
it's flu-sick.
haiz.
nvm.
life... ok lah.
had a talk with meiie today.
like, v long time never talk to her le lor...
too bad my phone no batt le.
if not can talk longer.
we talked a lot.
her life, my life, chengdu again.
she was trying to recall which hotel did she make a hole in e wall in.
lol.
5/30/2006 10:51:00 PM
it's cold now;
如果你从没出现,
我的世界还有什么可贵?
可惜不够时间让我们试验什么叫永远。
想念变成怀念,
心动变成心碎。
偏偏还会关切你最后属于谁。。。
我的天空今天有点灰,
我的心是个落叶的季节。
我不知道如何度过今夜,
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭。
如果你不再出现,
我会不会觉得快了一些?
可惜残忍时间总要把诺言一点点摧毁。
想念变成怀念,
心动变成心碎。
偏偏还会关切你最后属于谁。。。
我的天空今天有点灰,
我的心是个落叶的季节。
我不知道如何度过今夜,
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭。
--S.H.E《天灰》
my cousin is in e ICU.
he has multi-organ failure.
his heart, lungs, kidney and blood has viral infections.
his oxygen intake is low.
he's now in the critical stage.
24-72hrs, since last night.
sorry for breaking down in sch today and making everyone worried.
i shall apologize for my temper first.
cos i noe i'll be emotionally unstable e next few days and offend others.
esp my friends and classmates.
thks to ann and eunice, my two daughters, for ponning amath and staying with me when i cried.
thks to puqin for lending me her shoulders when i cried.
thks to wanyi, shimin, joanne, april and yuxian for showing your concern.
lastly, thks to qien,
for being the ever faithful and caring boyfriend.
for rushing over to my grandma's place to accompany me though it's already 1730 when you left e sch.
for encouraging me during our classes.
and for choosing to be there with and for me, though your tests are over and you could've gone home to have a good rest.
thks everyone.
5/23/2006 06:31:00 PM
it's cold now;
summary of wat i did:
friday:
confirm my l1r5 for tis term le.
got improve.
but still over 20.
went to do manicure with evona.
painted my nails milky white.
the service is v poor.
my nails were not filed and shaped properly.
and i dun like the colour of e petals on my nails.
to think that i spent 20 bucks on it.
went home to sleep at 2.
skipped sports day.
seriously,
dun feel like going to sch on monday.
dun want to face my form teacher and come up with another excuse to skip sports day.
besides, there's pe.
i dun want to take napfa.
muz remember to go beg my doc for mc.
so that i can skip napfa.
i'm tis despicable.
qien didn't have soccer training on that day.
so we juz hanged around at my grandma's place.
before going back home together.
sat:
woke up quite early today.
my cousin's wedding.
had to be something like bridesmaid.
so tired but happy.
earned 68 bucks.
everything ended at 2.
went back home to nap.
woke up at 1630.
got ready for wedding dinner.
temp. curled my hair.
looked weird.
went for dinner.
wore pink top and white skirt.
i like that skirt.
anyway, we left e restaurent at 2200 instead of 2145.
my aunt insisted that we had ample time to go from jurong to downtown east for another cousin's 21st bdae.
but we reached at 2300 in fact.
kj, lee tat and meiyan pangseh me.
one got flu while playing tennis,
one got big walk e next day,
and one had no money, lots of hw.
go figure who's excuse is wat.
leaving me with qien and michelle.
the whole day was one big mess.
i snapped at my aunt and qien.
they were annoyed, i guess.
esp qien.
we were like strangers e entire night.
i felt guilty and remorseful for asking him over to e chalet.
he has three tests tis coming week,
yet compromised.
juz becoz he didn't want to disappoint me.
he noes me too well.
so, he studied e whole nite,
only sleeping for a while at 0300 and 0500.
i hurt him.
too much.
too deep.
i'm sorry.
there's nth else i can say.
your hands were cold when i held it.
i can't sense warmth in it.
that's when i wondered, if our relationship is going to be history at a young age of 18 months.
if our relationship is like our child,
it would be abt 18 months old, able to walk and talk abit.
and starting to grow teeth and learn to talk.
p.s make mental note to try not to ask you out anymore.
5/21/2006 09:01:00 PM
it's cold now;
no money le.
left only 60 bucks in e acct for TWO WEEKS.
wanyi owes me 3.
leetat and dad owes me 9.
let's see.
30 bucks is for fundraising
(my mother knew that i'll squander it away, so she helped me throw everything into the bank.)
8 goes into my cousin's present.
15 goes into manicure.
10 goes into ann's flowers.
(unless she REALLY dun wants it.)
so far,
that's where my money will be going to.
O;'(
my results are out le.
more or less.
failed amath.
as always.
language is turning into a prob.
sciences...
ok lah.
as i've always said,
I'M GOING TO DEPEND ON CHINESE LITERATURE.
not combined humanities.
watched poseidon with qien on sat.
a very AMUSING post he created there.
i bet he's tired of living.
hmmm.
on the other hand,
he MIGHT be trying to spice up e relationship.
(yah, as though...)
so instead of our peaceful lives,
tension is created.
one tiny spark....
and i'll "ka-boom!!!!!" at him.
lol.
5/15/2006 09:52:00 PM
it's cold now;
tell me wat i can do to help you.
tell me wat you want me to do,
and i'll do.
i want independence.
so that i can ease your burden.
i want you to care less abt me.
so that you can spend more time on your studies.
i want you to take care of yourself.
becoz i'm not there to take care of you.
i want you to believe me when i say that i can manage on my own.
becoz i want to put your mind at ease.
i want to grow up together with you.
that's why i want to start getting used to you having less time for me.
i want you to be happy.
that's why i dun want to trouble you anymore.
5/09/2006 01:11:00 AM
it's cold now;
still doing integration and eng lit hw.
they're driving me crazy!!!
i really dun like eng lit, lemme tell you tis.
everything abt unseen lit is tension, anxiety and conflict.
give me a break.
really want to give up combined humann le lah...
haiz.
how am i going to take e Os at e end of e year?
dun console me.
it actually doesn't help, really.
5/07/2006 05:42:00 PM
it's cold now;
hmmm...
dunno wat to write abt.
juz finished helping my aunt with her accounts.
still got maths and chinese hw haven't do yet.
so far...
got my chem, chinese and chinese lit results le.
all Bs.
below expectations.
as usual.
but so far no reports of failing...
lol.
that's becoz i've not gotten my maths paper yet.
when i get it...
we'll see.
can see that he's under immense pressure nowadays.
i dunno how to help him.
wat can i do?
other than e usual encouragements....
but are e encouragements even useful in e first place?
everytime also "jiayou!!!", "you can do it de!!!", "i've faith in you"s...
say until i dun have faith in all e encouragements le...
does it really help a person?
even when i say "i love you",
will it really make your day...?
hmmm.
i dunno.
but if it'll make you feel happy,
我会很乐意地再说一万年:"我爱你."
O;)
5/06/2006 01:57:00 PM
it's cold now;
lol.
today's e end of SA1.
i believe that i can pass e math.
as for scoring beautifully...
we shall see later.
went with ChuAn and eunice to shop.
went to wisma's DanielYen to try out an evening gown.
they also nodded their heads.
lol.
it's a milky white full length toga which costs 146.
and i like it.
too bad i dun have e money to buy it yet.
shall send my mother to have a look.
den went to food republic.
had mala noodles again.
i juz love it.
ChuAn and eunice had mee rebus and rice separately.
hmmm...
qien turned up one hour later.
while they were having ice kacang.
after that, we went to paragon.
only to find ourselves at e opp end of orchard road.
we were supposed to go to e man u shop next to Forum.
when we reached,
he was rather disappointed.
i noe.
so we went to toy 'r us in forum.
v nice!!!
i want to go there more often.
after that,
we went home le.
on the way...
didn't say much.
he asked me why didn't i say something.
so i tried to talk abt his sch work.
but not for long.
hmmm...
sometimes i do wonder if i really noe him v well...
so well that we ran out of topics in 17th months.
but really, i dunno how much i noe abt him.
5/02/2006 11:30:00 PM
it's cold now;