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Friday, October 26, 2007

f-ing birds.
damn stupid birds.

i'm really not in the mood today.
not becoz it's e last day of sch.
but becoz of wat happened on the LAST period of the YEAR.

oh yah
THKS for giving us a name.
and by giving yourself a name too,
the class is .... i dunno.
i juz hope that things get better next year.

so sorry bear and jiahaur.
i didn't mean to upset you guys.
but i'm juz feeling kinda touchy today.
wat e hell.
i'm sorry if i made you even more unhappy, bear.
juz hope that you can be more tolerant of me tis time.
though it's kinda dumb of me to think tis way.
considering how i treated and tortured you tis whole year.
guess it's a great relief for you tis nov and dec.

qien, dihui and sebast weren't spared either.
according to them,
my face was all flushed up BEFORE and AFTER lunch.
i totally believe them,
seeing how i used the f word so frequently in the scope.
i'm sorry guys.
shouldn't vent my anger like tis.
esp when you guys are so stressed out by the a's now.
esp qien.
esp you.
sorry that i turned your day upside down.
you were kind to me today,
yet i took advantage of it.
FULL advantage of you.
and your emotions.

tis post was supposed to be a post of vulgarities.
yet it ended up in numerous apologies.
hope that i can be more emotionally stable e next year and stop hurting those i care abt.
ppl like qien, who i constantly was unappreciative of, and basically my closest sandbag and "VENTING machine".
i suppose e words i see on his face most of the time is:
"COME ON, VENT YOUR FRUSTRATIONS ON ME."
ppl like dihui and sebast, who were kinda there for me today.
ppl like bear, whom i felt sincerely guilty towards, after looking back my first year in tj.

ppl keeping telling me to not care abt it.
perhaps, they're really right.
really no point caring so much abt it.
let us find joy in sending out mails then.

apart from tis huge matter,
i am suffering from muscle-aches all over.
on account that i did makeup pe today and yest.
oh god.
AND,
i didn't get to have a meal with huimin, xinan, dihui, sebast, darren and qien.
cos they wanna have dinner after their lesson at 5.
the time i'm supposed to reach home.
wat a GREAT disappointment.
i was looking forward to eating kfc with them today.
after sebast told me last night.
life with them seems v relaxing.
maybe it's the feeling of having seniors.

oh.
and i couldn't withdraw from volleyball.
mr fung wants me to stay and go recre instead.
WAT'S THE POINT THEN???

wateva.
at least something happy did happened today.
I BOUGHT THE NAIL POLISH THAT I WANT FROM O2 SKIN!!!!
WOW!!!!
IT'S JUST THE RIGHT COLOUR!!!!!!
something like magenta.

AND THE SHOP IS HAVING 50% DISCOUNTS!!!!!!
WOW WOW!!!!!!!
I CAN BUY E PINK LOOSE POWDER THAT I WANT!!!!!!!
can't wait till i get my pocket money next week.

updated my shopping and wish list.
like i've said,
RETAIL THERAPY HELPS.
even though it's juz something cheap.
like your favourite nail polish.

10/26/2007 09:32:00 PM
it's cold now;

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

today is utterly an illogical day.
so pls
dun mind wat i'm writing.
must be the hormones.
and PW.

10/23/2007 09:36:00 PM
it's cold now;

wat am i doing now
i should be rehearsing
bear will definitely say
"YOU...."

haiz.
i can only say that i feel so
wu nai.
read sibei's blog
den i realised that i'm not the only one.

why does relationship make us so helpless?

wtf.
yes
it's WTF.

yet i'm drawn to it.
such a miserable pathetic thing.
i ought to die for being so stuck to love.
wtf.
wtf.
wtf.
shake me and make me wake up.
tell me wat am i thinking.
give me the reason why i love.

oh
maybe when i see you
then i'll finally be reminded.

but for now
NO

ARGH.
in need of retail therapy.

pls
send me money from heaven
shopping will definitely lift up my spirits.

wtf again.
i dunno wat i'm writing.
REALLY REALLY NEED TO BUY SOMETHING.
ANYTHING.

10/23/2007 09:26:00 PM
it's cold now;

我阿姨没结婚.
当时有了对象,到了谈婚论嫁的阶段.
可是最后,
没结婚.
因为家人.
至今,
不再想要两个人.

她本身也有着大女人主义的思想
靠自己,胜于靠他人的"奉养"

我想
我不结婚的原因
大概会和她一样

或许有一天
你会发现
你要的不是我这种人
你还是会要
小鸟依人
超级温柔
娇丽如花
的洋娃娃
一个让人羡慕不已
穿着打扮
活像从顶尖时尚杂志走出来的
窈宨淑女

君子好逑嘛.

而我
我是个
个性女孩
无法受拘束
就算束缚
也不知道是几时想被捆住.
穿得美美
是想给自己看爽
不是讨好炫耀的手法
追求时尚也不像
是我让你高兴的手段

我到底是怎么了
想讨好
却不喜欢你来教
教我怎么穿
教我怎么扮
教我怎么利用调色盘
调出你要的女人的味道

我真的
真有这么烂
烂到本性无法吸引你
只有在
从头到尾
从内到外变到底
变成身边的
超级无敌大淑女
才能再次
甚至永远
捆住你的整颗心

吗?

10/23/2007 07:05:00 PM
it's cold now;

Sunday, October 07, 2007

promos are finally over.
so is my one week of "BREAK".
wow. what a week.
dunno what i'm doing.

e class went to teoheng @ katong shopping centre.
angelina kept talking abt it.
haha. must be a great place.
original plan was to go and enjoy with e class.
afterall, i hardly attend class gatherings.
and it's a gd chance to check out e place.

however, i pangseh them.
becoz of some addition to e crowd.
my dear angelina and gals should noe why.
felt v apologetic.

with that,
i shall let everyone noe my rationale for forgiving and not forgiving.
if i do not forgive, i will look as if i'm REAL petty.
but if i forgive, will the reason why i'm angry be known?

haha.
so proud to announce that I SUGGESTED BUYING A SCARF AS THE GIFT!!!
lol.
see?
girls love scarves.
esp the wollen ones.
maybe she and i do have something in common afterall.
lol.

life is getting tougher.
it's sorta like....
draining me.
i wonder how long can i hold on.
can i hold on?
i dunno if i'm too impatient.
maybe waiting for 35mths is not good enough afterall.
haiz.
jiayou to me ba.
i do hope that i'll noe wat i want soon.

sooner or later, i think the girls are going to be segreggated from the guys.
lol.
7 nov is one day worth looking forward to.
and 16 nov.
23 nov?
we shall see.

6.10 CHALET!!!!!!!!!!!!!

--edited on 22 Oct 2007

10/07/2007 04:02:00 PM
it's cold now;